Silenced soul.

I haven't wrote to you in many months, 

and for that I am so so sorry.

I would typically say that I've been busy, 

and work has taken over and all of those cliche phrases we use 

when we don't want to admit to being lazy,

or simply just not doing something.

Tonight, I write to you, 

whoever you are reading this, with a heavy heart.

This week in my country has been filled with violence and hatred 

and scattered posts about guns and politics and faith.

I do not know what to say in a situation like this, 

except my heart and soul are with those who fear the world. 

I am so sorry that we live in a time where love is interpreted

 by an orientation rather than an emotional connection between two perfect beings. 

To my best friends, family, co-workers, strangers on the street, 

who love differently than I do, 

I will forever support you and defend you until my last breath.

I am so sorry that acts of violence like this happen in 2016, 

and have happened in the past. 

I am sorry you have become a topic in a terrorism discussion.
I am sorry you have had your love targeted.
I am sorry that this type of horror still exists.
I am sorry people feel as though they can criticize love.

To my other halves who have held me tight through some 

of the worst days and nights of my life, 

I hope that one day, 

you will feel safe here, 

the way that you made me feel. 

You are so brave. You are loved.

I know this isn't much, 

but I felt as though I should say something. 

To Orlando, 

my heart is with you.

My prayers are for you.

Keep dancing angels.

All of my love, 

Kristen Nicole.