January Jams

Just a little list of what filled my playlist this month,

and probably the weirdest mix you'll see...

Lonely Call - Raelynn

This One's for you - Luke Combs

No Limit - gEazy ft ASAP Rocky & Cardi B

As Lovers Go - Dashboard Confessional

Prayer of the Refugee - Rise Against

 I Fall Apart- Post Malone

Diane - Cam

Tuxedo - Clare Dunn

Amelia Jean - Jack's Mannequin 

Miss Murder - AFI

Bored to Death - Blink 182

Five Tattoos - Ella Henderson

Angela - The Lumineers

( and really anything else by them...)

What have y'all been singing in the car?

Let me know!

Until then, 

-K

January favorites 💕

Hi lovelies, 

I’ve got way too much stuff to talk about to compose and intro for y’all,
so let’s just jump into it. 

Your girl absolutely raided the bath and body works semi annual sale,
just FYI. If you didn’t, you need to prep for the next one.
I found some of my new absolute favorite products there,
and for super cheap. 

- Snowy Morning shower gel (price after sale $3)

This smells like  heaven, and it isn’t heavily scented like Christmas.
The notes are: frosted bergamot,
mistletoe berry, and snow kissed lavender....
which I mean who really knows what any of those smell like,
but all mashed together, they make an amazing combo.

- White body spray and Rose Body spray ($3.50 after sale)

Both of these took me by surprise.
I purchased the rose spray first,
pretty much because of the packaging,
and fell in love.
I love floral perfumes,
just so long as I don’t smell like the inside of a funeral home.
This one is light and easy to wear.
White is absolutely out of this world.
It smells kind of like dolce and gabbana light blue,
which is why I think it’s quickly become my everyday scent. 

New drugstore must haves...

that honestly left me wondering

where the hell I've been for the last year: 

- Airspun loose face powder ($5.97 Walmart)

Again I say...WHERE HAVE I BEEN.
I’ve never really jumped on the “baking” makeup bandwagon,
but it really truly helps your makeup stay in place all day.
This powder isn’t heavy,
and doesn’t leave you looking like you actually baked
and covered your face in flour.
I’m obsessed.

- Maybelline Big Shot Colassal Mascara ($6.99 Target)



I'm super picky when it comes to mascara,
and up until recently I couldn't find one that
with just a coat or two would create volume and length
without looking gross.
This is such a good formula, and doesn't budge all day.
I have stubby lashes,
and this truly makes them look long and thicc with 2 c's.

- Dove Dermacare scalp Anti dandruff shampoo ($4.99 Target)




I love Dove shampoo anyway,
but in the winter when your scalp gets a little too oily, or too dry,
this shampoo  does the trick without making your hair feel striped.
I know, a dandruff shampoo favorite?
But hell yeah.
This shit is amazing, and smells great too.

What have you been loving this month?
Let me know!

Until then,
K.

Let’s talk about it: weight loss surgery

So, honestly,  I never thought I would be writing something like this. It’s probably going to be a bit ramble-y but I mean so are all my other posts so wtf else is new. 

My mind is jumbled so if I jump back and forth with thoughts, please forgive me. 

I’ve decided to take a huge step and actively pursue the journey that is weight loss surgery. My weight has gotten out of hand, and I feel like I am no longer in control of my body, and that scares me. I’ve taken the first steps in my journey to changing my life for the better and for that I’m proud of myself, for noting the problem, and for trying to make a change. Depending on insurance, and doctors, I’ll have a date soon. 

I made this page initially to talk about makeup tips and tricks, and it turned into a body positivity page, and I love it. I’ve talked about ups and downs and struggles and I’ve met so many people who feel similar to the way I do about being plus sized. I see nothing wrong with it. It is nothing to be ashamed of. Your curves are yours to love. Once I saw my health and mental health taking a turn, I decided I needed a change, and a big one at that. I will always continue to push people to work on loving themselves first. 

The crazy thing is, I’ve never been “skinny” or “average” when it comes to weight. I have no idea what I will look like, or feel like, and that’s something that has played with my head a lot lately. I’m just ready to be able to run. I want to grow old. I want to be able to breathe. I want to watch my someday nieces and nephews and goddaughter and cousins grow up. And I want to travel with the love of my life and not have to worry about breaking chairs. It’s little things that some people never think about that have became my life. Stupid things. Like clothing. Which my life revolves around as a person with a bachelors in fashion. It’s just mind blowing to think about really. 

I’m looking forward to using my blog to document my path through this, and I promise I won’t turn into an annoying health guru. 

If you have had any type of bariatric surgery, I’d love to hear about it, as I’m very nervous going into this thing. Feel free to comment or email or comment on my social media’s. 

I love you all and I can’t wait to see how things change.

X,

Kristen. 

2018.

Well, hello there everyone.

I'd like to start by wishing everyone a very happy new year,
and I hope that y'all had a great holiday season.
Each year I've posted right after the new year a bit of a reflection
and a bit of what I hope is to come in these next 11 months.

2017 was a weird year, right?
It was full of tragedy, awful politics, and fucked up weather.
But, it was also full of movement.
And I think that it's really important to focus on that.
There was such a feeling of change in the air,
between protests, marches, and powerful people letting their
opinions flow freely. It shows that we are not stuck.
Watching #nomore and #timesup take over the internet
was so incredible, and I am so proud of the women who are
changing our country.

Personally, 2017 was a year of change as well. I've seen myself growing in a way that I really hadn't before. I'm still an absolute mess, but I'm talking about growth that can't be seen in person. Mentally the year was tough. I "deal" with anxiety daily. Some days are fine, and others I can't seem to pull myself out of "it." I've began putting a voice behind these struggles and asking for help, which is something I've never done. Put yourself first for once. Anxiety and depression are extremely serious and shouldn't be toyed with. You're allowed to ask for help.

I've also been on a path to a better me, which I'm planning on writing another post on completely. But I can't wait to finally grow into the best version of myself.

I hope you've given yourself time to relax and enjoy the season.
I can't wait to see what 2018 has to hold for all of us.

All of my love, and wishes for the best.

-K.