Let’s talk about it: weight loss surgery

So, honestly,  I never thought I would be writing something like this. It’s probably going to be a bit ramble-y but I mean so are all my other posts so wtf else is new. 

My mind is jumbled so if I jump back and forth with thoughts, please forgive me. 

I’ve decided to take a huge step and actively pursue the journey that is weight loss surgery. My weight has gotten out of hand, and I feel like I am no longer in control of my body, and that scares me. I’ve taken the first steps in my journey to changing my life for the better and for that I’m proud of myself, for noting the problem, and for trying to make a change. Depending on insurance, and doctors, I’ll have a date soon. 

I made this page initially to talk about makeup tips and tricks, and it turned into a body positivity page, and I love it. I’ve talked about ups and downs and struggles and I’ve met so many people who feel similar to the way I do about being plus sized. I see nothing wrong with it. It is nothing to be ashamed of. Your curves are yours to love. Once I saw my health and mental health taking a turn, I decided I needed a change, and a big one at that. I will always continue to push people to work on loving themselves first. 

The crazy thing is, I’ve never been “skinny” or “average” when it comes to weight. I have no idea what I will look like, or feel like, and that’s something that has played with my head a lot lately. I’m just ready to be able to run. I want to grow old. I want to be able to breathe. I want to watch my someday nieces and nephews and goddaughter and cousins grow up. And I want to travel with the love of my life and not have to worry about breaking chairs. It’s little things that some people never think about that have became my life. Stupid things. Like clothing. Which my life revolves around as a person with a bachelors in fashion. It’s just mind blowing to think about really. 

I’m looking forward to using my blog to document my path through this, and I promise I won’t turn into an annoying health guru. 

If you have had any type of bariatric surgery, I’d love to hear about it, as I’m very nervous going into this thing. Feel free to comment or email or comment on my social media’s. 

I love you all and I can’t wait to see how things change.

X,

Kristen.